Have you ever been doing something you know you shouldn’t but you still did it? Did you say, I will never do it again? Then a week later, you are back at it. I do this all the time. Sometimes it’s sleep, sometimes it’s sexual thoughts. I feel like a salve when I go back.
“Formerly, when you did not know God, you were slaves to those who by nature are not gods. But now that you know God — Or rather are known by God – How is it that you are turning back to those weak and miserable forces? Do you wish to be enslaved by them all over again?” Galatians 4:8-9
Before we came to Christ, sin controlled us. Every thought, every action. Somehow, someway, sin controlled it. We were its slaves and we had to obey. The slave master wasn’t good to us, It didn’t want a relationship with us. All it wanted to do is have it join them when death comes knocking.
When we became children of God, we switched masters. We allowed Jesus to be our masters. He covered us with his protections, and no longer are we a slave to sin. Jesus Christ is a good master who lets us choose what to do. He asks that we love Him in return. This is a good thing.
With that said, We oftentimes return back to the thing that hurts us so. Why? My theory is that we got use to the pain. It was normal for us. This newness is something scary. Thus, we go back to what we know. Paul calls it like it is, weak and miserable. You have to accept the newness. You are no longer in that life. You are no longer a slave. It’s ok not to be in pain. It’s ok to be free.
Are you not free? Why is that? Addiction is a real thing, and it’s hard to break free. Sometimes God will heal you and free you from the pain. I know of a few people God has done this with. My wife does not smoke anymore. However, sometimes addiction comes in after the fact. Sometimes God doesn’t take the addiction away. He does this to allow you to grow on the dependence on him. This brings a depth of relationships that others will take years to get. See your addiction as a blessing because you know God will take it as you give it. It’s all about control, and how comfortable we are willing to be.
Are you comfortable in your hurts, habits, and hang ups? Maybe its time to be uncomfortable with them. Maybe it’s time to watch them burn through the struggle to release them.
Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Phlilippians 4:13-14
Notice behind and straining towards in this passage. Freedom from the past isn’t easy. It’s hard. But you will be much stronger on the other side. Lets do this together. There is a freedom in the daily renewing, the daily crushing.